Saturday, August 23, 2003

Feeling Insane

Note: I was on a seriously high dose of Prednisone in the summer of 2003

The drugs they put me on…I dunno. My mind is so messed up. I feel insane. I am not myself. Sometimes. Sometimes I want to hit the walls and scream. Sometimes everything swirls and I am lost in it. Its like morphine.
Then I wig cuz I can’t eat. Everything hurts. And then I get this feeling like I’m gonna throw up, only it goes over my heart and brain, and under my face. I am so totally delirious. I feel like I’m living in a dream. I want to cry out. To wake up. I can’t.
I pray to God that He give me my body, mind and life back. I hope he listens cuz I’m trapped and someone needs to pull me out.

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